This week, I feel like I have been affected by my stressors physically and mentally. There are a few things which has been wearing me out and I'm trying to hang in there. I know everything would eventually be okay (what wouldn't) but I can't deny the fact that I'm not feeling well. I have problems sleeping sometimes, I lose quite a bit of my appetite and of course the sure weird feeling I have when my anxiety is eating me inside (like butterflies in the stomach, but the poisonous kind).
I find out that i don't want to talk much about it and I feel helpless. I obviously cannot control a lot of external forces but it is bad that I'm internalizing all the crap.
Like the Staples' commercial, I wish life has an "easy button".
o god, fuck that shit.
Listening to Elliott Smith kind of makes me worse.
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Age is just a three-letter word?
Ageism.
Prejudice and oppression existed against old people (hmm, "“seniors", I mean) in our society. Stereotypes like slow, senile, weak are often associated with elderly people.
On the other side of the spectrum, young people could be treated unfairly because of their age, too.
At the age of 24, I feel I don'’t get respect from some people just because I am young (relatively speaking). People probably won'’t admit it, so I guess it is easier to find some other excuses to cast their doubts on me. Growing up in my own culture whereas seniority is highly valued, I always felt it was easy to dismiss because I was a kid or I was just young.
Things aren'’t that radically different in America. My relatively young age let some to easily conclude that I don't really know much about anything. Like I just said, people probably made some other excuses rather than being outright ageist (same dynamic with any other forms of oppression). It's easier to pick on me for talking funny, looking funny or acting funny.
Yeah, even though I'’m the one who'’s in the position of power. Possibly, people feel more difficult to listen to someone half their age.
Hey, I don't even want to be in charge. But some assholes just keep making life difficult for me. (At the same time, I'm grateful for the faith and trust of those who know me.)
Keep dissing me as long as you like. I'’ll let my actions speak for me. Frankly, people's biases and prejudices stem from their own insecurities and its roots has nothing to do with me.
Your stupidity will be the fuel of my motivation.
Prejudice and oppression existed against old people (hmm, "“seniors", I mean) in our society. Stereotypes like slow, senile, weak are often associated with elderly people.
On the other side of the spectrum, young people could be treated unfairly because of their age, too.
At the age of 24, I feel I don'’t get respect from some people just because I am young (relatively speaking). People probably won'’t admit it, so I guess it is easier to find some other excuses to cast their doubts on me. Growing up in my own culture whereas seniority is highly valued, I always felt it was easy to dismiss because I was a kid or I was just young.
Things aren'’t that radically different in America. My relatively young age let some to easily conclude that I don't really know much about anything. Like I just said, people probably made some other excuses rather than being outright ageist (same dynamic with any other forms of oppression). It's easier to pick on me for talking funny, looking funny or acting funny.
Yeah, even though I'’m the one who'’s in the position of power. Possibly, people feel more difficult to listen to someone half their age.
Hey, I don't even want to be in charge. But some assholes just keep making life difficult for me. (At the same time, I'm grateful for the faith and trust of those who know me.)
Keep dissing me as long as you like. I'’ll let my actions speak for me. Frankly, people's biases and prejudices stem from their own insecurities and its roots has nothing to do with me.
Your stupidity will be the fuel of my motivation.
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Brigitte Bardot should be stuffed with French bread
Brigitte Bardot recently went to Canada and "pleaded" the Canadiens to stop seal hunting.
"How can we continue to kill seals in a rich country like Canada... I am not crazy... I am pleading with you," said Bardot.
No, ma'am. You are actually CRAZY. Rich and famous people like you are entitled to your own opinion. More so, you are also entitled to shut the fuck up. It's one thing to have an opinion, but it is another thing when you are trying to impose your self-righteous values to other people.
"This will likely be my last visit to Canada before I die. I want to see this barbaric massacre stopped before then," she said.
This should be my last time listening to your bullshit before you die. Your anti-muslim (Islamization of France?) and anti-gay (fairground freaks?) comments gives you a lot of respect in public speaking, right? I found it so amusing sometimes when people can advocate so hard for animals while being a total ass to their fellow Homo Sapiens. Maybe it said "Homo", that's why Bardot didn't like us. I bet she's the MORE than human, isn't she? She's SO IN TUNE with the seals and nature. I'm sure they won't bite her head off because her meat is too soggy to chew on. What's the next news header? "Brigitte Bardot pleaded that lions should stop killing Hyenas."
I am not against Animal Rights. I'm just against the barbaric "animalization" of human beings (of the "humanization" of animals). I'm disgusted by the snobbery and smugness of the self-absorbed ones. Of course, nobody (including myself) is immune to that, but some people's heads tend to get bigger than others'.
"How can we continue to kill seals in a rich country like Canada... I am not crazy... I am pleading with you," said Bardot.
No, ma'am. You are actually CRAZY. Rich and famous people like you are entitled to your own opinion. More so, you are also entitled to shut the fuck up. It's one thing to have an opinion, but it is another thing when you are trying to impose your self-righteous values to other people.
"This will likely be my last visit to Canada before I die. I want to see this barbaric massacre stopped before then," she said.
This should be my last time listening to your bullshit before you die. Your anti-muslim (Islamization of France?) and anti-gay (fairground freaks?) comments gives you a lot of respect in public speaking, right? I found it so amusing sometimes when people can advocate so hard for animals while being a total ass to their fellow Homo Sapiens. Maybe it said "Homo", that's why Bardot didn't like us. I bet she's the MORE than human, isn't she? She's SO IN TUNE with the seals and nature. I'm sure they won't bite her head off because her meat is too soggy to chew on. What's the next news header? "Brigitte Bardot pleaded that lions should stop killing Hyenas."
I am not against Animal Rights. I'm just against the barbaric "animalization" of human beings (of the "humanization" of animals). I'm disgusted by the snobbery and smugness of the self-absorbed ones. Of course, nobody (including myself) is immune to that, but some people's heads tend to get bigger than others'.
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
"Crash" is racist, says Francisco Lo
I saw “Crash” tonight with my friend Joe at the Angelica tonight. Supposedly, this is “The Movie of the year” according to the Oscars. Edgy thought-provoking racism-talking film, right? Sorry to say, but I think it isn’t that great. In some aspects, it can pretty bad.
Some of the characters in the movie are over-the-top racist. White people just don’t say it out loud about being racist. Maybe some do, but the truth is racism is more under the skin. Much of the conversation in the movie lacks subtlety. Brandon Frazer’s employee said shit like “damn black people and pointed out “stats” about black people and jail. Are you kidding me? A white person with slightly little sense of political correctness will not say that crap in front of a black person (you don’t even have to be culturally sensitive at all). Some people may think that way, but most people don’t think OUT LOUD.
Ludacris’ character was pretty half-baked. One minute he was talking about why that white women shouldn’t be afraid to see black guys like him. As he finished his sentence, he just pulled out a gun and carjacked her. The writers may try to make him as a “young intelligent black man who made some bad choices”, but the only impression I get is he’s full of crap.
Ironically, I think the movie itself is quite racist. Matt Dillion was this racist cop that violated an innocent couple because they are black. Thirty minutes down the movie, he is the fucking hero saving the same woman whom he molested. Stop feeding me with the shit about him being racist because he thought minorities ripped his dad’s chances. That’s just minimizing the complexity of racism. On the other hand, Ryan Phillippe tried very hard not to let racism come into his work. Yet he ended up killing a black man out of fear. Okay, so the racist cop is the hero and the trying-not-to-be racist rookie ended up as the bad guy. No wonder Matt Dillion gets a Oscar nomination. There are not many chances that stupid “liberal” Hollywood gets to honor a racist hero. Not since “Birth Of A Nation”.
The storyline between the Iranian and the Mexican locksmith was pretty laughable and cliché. I have to go jihad on that. What about the Chinaman? Man, why didn’t Ludaric just leave that Ching Chong under his truck and drag that motherfucker down three more blocks. Maybe it’ll be more entertaining. (Sandra Bullock’s falling down the stairs totally cracked me up.)
Much of the dialogue and some of the characters are just not real enough, yet the movie desperately trying to be REAL. And that is the real problem with the movie. It is okay to be over-the-top sometimes as long as you don't try to portray it as the "real thing". The two scenes with Terence Howard are the only parts of the movie I like. His character showed more complexity and his story was more down to earth. Besides, I’m very impressed by his acting. However, Crash is too ambitious and the amount of subplots diluted the remaining strengths of the movie.
I have to say, Crash is a poser. People can feel good about watching it and think they recognized racism today. But the real world is a lot of complex and subtle than the movie. Crash made racism so cool, it made me want to be racist.
(Was the snow at the end supposed to be a symbol of white power?)
Some of the characters in the movie are over-the-top racist. White people just don’t say it out loud about being racist. Maybe some do, but the truth is racism is more under the skin. Much of the conversation in the movie lacks subtlety. Brandon Frazer’s employee said shit like “damn black people and pointed out “stats” about black people and jail. Are you kidding me? A white person with slightly little sense of political correctness will not say that crap in front of a black person (you don’t even have to be culturally sensitive at all). Some people may think that way, but most people don’t think OUT LOUD.
Ludacris’ character was pretty half-baked. One minute he was talking about why that white women shouldn’t be afraid to see black guys like him. As he finished his sentence, he just pulled out a gun and carjacked her. The writers may try to make him as a “young intelligent black man who made some bad choices”, but the only impression I get is he’s full of crap.
Ironically, I think the movie itself is quite racist. Matt Dillion was this racist cop that violated an innocent couple because they are black. Thirty minutes down the movie, he is the fucking hero saving the same woman whom he molested. Stop feeding me with the shit about him being racist because he thought minorities ripped his dad’s chances. That’s just minimizing the complexity of racism. On the other hand, Ryan Phillippe tried very hard not to let racism come into his work. Yet he ended up killing a black man out of fear. Okay, so the racist cop is the hero and the trying-not-to-be racist rookie ended up as the bad guy. No wonder Matt Dillion gets a Oscar nomination. There are not many chances that stupid “liberal” Hollywood gets to honor a racist hero. Not since “Birth Of A Nation”.
The storyline between the Iranian and the Mexican locksmith was pretty laughable and cliché. I have to go jihad on that. What about the Chinaman? Man, why didn’t Ludaric just leave that Ching Chong under his truck and drag that motherfucker down three more blocks. Maybe it’ll be more entertaining. (Sandra Bullock’s falling down the stairs totally cracked me up.)
Much of the dialogue and some of the characters are just not real enough, yet the movie desperately trying to be REAL. And that is the real problem with the movie. It is okay to be over-the-top sometimes as long as you don't try to portray it as the "real thing". The two scenes with Terence Howard are the only parts of the movie I like. His character showed more complexity and his story was more down to earth. Besides, I’m very impressed by his acting. However, Crash is too ambitious and the amount of subplots diluted the remaining strengths of the movie.
I have to say, Crash is a poser. People can feel good about watching it and think they recognized racism today. But the real world is a lot of complex and subtle than the movie. Crash made racism so cool, it made me want to be racist.
(Was the snow at the end supposed to be a symbol of white power?)
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